Breaking Point

This sinking feeling in your stomach
The one that overwhelms you
And brings tears to your eyes
Is just your body stating
That you’ve reached your
Breaking point

Hikari Aie

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For Me

If you could love me
For me…
Would you?
Would you love all
The good things about me
Like my…
Laugh
Smile
Eyes
The silly things I say
Selflessness
My snoring
Snort
My excitement for bubbles
And don’t forget butterflies

If you could love me
For me…
Would you?
Would you love all
The bad things about me
Like my…
Depression
Anxiety
Fear of PDA
Mood swings that lasts for days
Attitude
Stubbornness
Insecurities
My crippling sense of fear…

If you could love me
For me…
Would you?
Would you love me…
Could you love…
The good
&
The bad
?

Hikari Aie

 

WordPress-A-Versary

Hey Guys,

A month ago was my WordPress-A-Versary. I’ve been a blogger for a whole year. It’s been hard being “committed” and I didn’t think that anyone really followed me or paid attention to what I was ranting about. Turns out…

I WAS WRONG!!!

I was dead wrong. You may not have liked or commented but you did follow and you did share in my life story. So I would love to give you guys a big…

THANK YOU!!!

It’s been a hard year but I’d like to thank you guys for following me and keeping up with the madness that is my mind. Thank you for the well wishes and the fan mail. Yes…I have fan mail. Isn’t that awesome?

Overall, just thank you for being a part of my life, not just being a part but motivating me as well.

Here is what I have accomplished in a year’s time…

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*Let your curiosity get the best of you and click on the link to see my work*

Best Blog for the year

  1. Broken Girl – 21 Likes Overall

Top 10 Blogs that was ranked over 10 Likes

  1. Written– 15 Likes
  2. A Lover’s Dream– 14 Likes
  3. He Said – 14 Likes
  4. Prized Possession – 13 Likes
  5. EAT  – 12 Likes
  6. Flashlight – 12 Likes
  7. 30 Day Challenge – 11 Likes
  8. Girl in the Mirror – 11 Likes
  9. Karma – 11 Likes
  10. Sticks and Stones – 11 Likes

Top Blogs that was ranked with 10 Likes

  1. A Little More Time
  2. Day 18 – Believe in Me  
  3. Dreaming Alone
  4. Something
  5. Everything
  6. Happiness is…
  7. Happy
  8. Day 2 – 10 Year Plan
  9. Moving On 101 – Day 2
  10. Survival
  11. You Made Me Cry

My Favorite Blogs Sites

  1. Breaking the Silenc3 – Silenc340
  2. Trimesters and Tribulations – 
  3. Dadstayedhome
  4. Thelittlethingsinlife – Meli
  5. Drem
  6. SurvingingSara

 

I mean this post can continue but it can’t.

Stick around and see what’s coming up.

I’ve got big news.

© Hikari Aie

 

 

 

Unspoken

The upset mind
Is quick to lash out
With an angry tongue
Using words to
Unconsciously
Hurt the people
They care about.

Be careful,
For once out there
Those words
Can never be
Unspoken.

©Hikari Aie

Moving On 101: Log 10 – Acceptance & Moving On

I haven’t done a log in quite some time. As you know I’ve been going though the motions of a ugly breakup with my ex of five years. Unofficially we’ve been broken up for a year. Officially is been seven months.

I’ve learned the following:

As the months passed I’ve went through all the stages of a breakup and finally I’ve come to the point of acceptance. I’ve accepted the fact that he cheated and lied. He took me for granted and at the end of the day he hurt me. I mean yes it sucks to be taken advantage of but I’m a stronger person today because of it.
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I gave myself time to heal because I needed it. I didn’t go searching for someone to love. I just dealt with it. I cried when I needed to cry and screamed a lot.

I surrounded myself with someone who cared about me and just tried my hardest to move on. However, it is hard to move on when you still haven’t accepted the situation that you’re in. Once you’ve accepted what you did or didn’t do wrong everything sort of just falls into place.

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Will I say that he was a mistake? No. I really did love him but I’m not going to beat myself up over him because I found something better.

I found myself.

I’ve learned from my mistakes and I’ve learned that I’m not going to repeat them. I’ve forgiven myself and this is why moving on is coming easy to me. It’s an amazing feeling to have peace of mind. No more tears. No more why me. The pain literally melted away.

Now the question is what do I do?

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This is what I did…I let go of my past and now I’m focusing on my future. I must admit that it’s looking very bright.

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I also follow this golden rule. Once I leave my house, I promise myself that nothing is going to steal my joy. I mean we all have moments where we feel down or sad but don’t focus on that.

The simple things in life makes me tremendously happy. Squeaky toys, things that glow in the dark, butterflies, rain, eating ice, and just laughing with my friends…All of those things makes me happy and I enjoy being happy.

I’ve honestly never been so happy and satisfied in my life. Having a man didn’t do that, loving myself did. Once I loved myself then everything else fell into place. I lost friends because I realized my worth and I’m okay with that. I met someone who loves me for me. He even loves me when I wake him up at four in the morning crying because it’s raining. It’s silly but this is me. The real me.

Now if you’ve been following me then you are probably thing why are you dating already. Well…that is a story for another blog and trust me, it’s coming soon.

Until then…

Remember this:

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© Hikari Aie