It’s hard to break down your walls and let people in. It’s even harder when people hurt you when  your walls are down. I’m struggling to find that balance once again. Part of me is hurting and the other part just wants to put back up that wall. Seal off all the exits so that no one can get in. I know I can’t do that but its my defense mechanism.

I keep making the mistakes and asking for forgiveness. The only logical thing is to just stop making mistakes but how do you erase something that’s conditioned? It is said that time heals all wounds but sometimes that’s not the case. With time, I find that I’m only getting worse…


10 thoughts on “Walls

  1. I completely get what you are saying. I’ve been hurt and it hurt even more when I trusted them enough not to hurt me again and then they did. Now a year later i am finally in a space where I am ready to heal. I’m tired of wishing he didn’t hurt me, because guess what… He did. As you try to heal, know that others are here with you.

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