Does anyone know who I really am?
Does anyone see the fear in my eyes,
- Who the worry, the pain?
Do they see anything behind this facade?
Behind the jokes, the act I play?
Do they sense the silence?
The barricade I put up
to keep all out?
It barely falters, and when it does,
Like glass on impact.
What they see is a smiling fool.
A girl with a ditzy life and insane dreams.
They see what I want them too
They think what I want them to think.
I lie to keep the act up,
I ruin friendships when I don’t.
I break, I crack, and it all seeps through,
It ruins what has been and could have been.
Where did I go wrong?
When did this start?
I do not know, but now it mustn’t end.
If it does, then I shall end.
I shall answer what is asked of me
Truthfully, honestly, without hesitation.
Then I’ll go,
I’ll flee this world
Never to return again.