Love is confusing, conflicting, and hurtful. To find it is the most beautiful thing in the world. It’s like a gift…a treasure even that you should hold onto. If possible, hold onto it forever because you never know when it can drift away. When its lost and gone, you feel empty and void, like all the things that made you happy is no longer there.
No more staying up late on the phone, moonlight strolls, dates in the weirdest places. No more hearing the words I love you, plans to be wed, and breakfast in bed. No more signs of affection, terms of endearment, and holding hands.
And the biggest question now that follows:
What do you do and how do you move on?
Do you lock yourself away and give up on everything? Do you move on and sleep with the first person who says what you want to hear? Do you put up a shield around you that is so thick and strong that no one can get close to you…friends or family? Do you smile and act like your heart hasn’t been shattered into a million pieces?
It’s hard, making that decision at the spur of the moment. What if you just wait? What if love finds you again? What do you do? Do you push them away or pull them close? Do you give it your all or just let it slip away? Do you even try to make it work? Listen and communicate to make it stay whole? Smile and share secrets that can last a lifetime?
Why should that one “special” person suffer for what someone did to you? Why? Yet still you say that you will never do that and you do. You hold onto the hurt that someone inflicted on you that you never fully heal. You never get over how much that person made you cry night after night. How much they put you down and let their ego get the best of them. The weirdest is that despite everything they did to you…
You still love them.
If this is the case, then why?
Love is giving somebody the ability to hold your heart and trusting them not to break it.
If trust is not there,
Then it is impossible to love.